Wednesday, September 23, 2009

If things are meant to be

Since I was a young boy, I watched you from afar,
Your beautiful, sweet allure.
Since I was a young boy, I wanted you to be mine,
Your treacherous, devious stares.
And if things are meant to be, I would love you now and forever more.

When I was a young lad, I felt your soft, warm grace,
Your breath softly whispering into my ear.
When I was a young lad, I would ruminate for days on end,
Your singsong hair dancing in the wind.
And if things are meant to be, I would worship the ground beneath your feet.

Now that I am a young man, I seem to have misplaced my heart,
Your hand slipping from my grasp.
Now that I am a young man, I am lost again without you,
Your face haunting my waking dreams.
And if things are meant to be, I would never lose sight again.

If I become a man, I will have learned from all of my mistakes,
Your affections turned back to me.
If I become a man, I will not be led back astray,
Your lips, soft petals of love's embrace.
If things are meant to be.

Tuesday, September 15, 2009

man down

It's two minutes into the second quarter and one of my players gets ejected from the game against Priory High School for having 3 major fouls, except that he's only actually committed two, but the dumb cunt at the scorer's table "accidentally" put him down for three. I look at her and give her a thumbs up sign, she smiles, I feel like she hasn't quite got the message. I go up to the referee to argue, but he says "Look son, I have to go by the table, you should have posted one of your people up here to make sure they're getting things right." Fuck, duly noted.

I have 11 players on the team, but four are ineligible for game play (3 due to grades and 1 one due to transfer ineligibility). That means, for the first four games, all players must go full games. That means 28 minutes of grueling competition. I can't even jog for 28 minutes straight.

The ref gets me and the Priory coach together and ask us what we want to do. "Let's just play it out," I say, we didn't practice for the last month just to forfeit some game because we were a man down. We are up two at this point and the game was looking like it was in the bag. We had practiced man down defense drills, but not for 3 quarters of game play. Up through the fourth we continue to hold on defense and maintain our lead. That is until the last two minutes, I call a time out.

The kids are gassed, they have given it their all and there's not much left.

"We've got to press on defense, keep the pressure up. I know you guys are tired, but the game is in this next two minutes."

"Yes, Coach."

"Now, go out there and finish this game."

Priory is able to score two at the end of the game. We lose. What surprises me is that none of the boys are sad, there are no heads hung low, or whining or complaining. I am proud of them. This one kid, Garrett, I was especially proud of. He's shy, frail, and no more than a buck twenty. He showed up big to the game though and I think it's the first time he felt like he was a part of the team.

At the end of the game a parent from the other team congratulates me.

"You guys did great especially with a man down."

"Yeah, it was a tough loss, but I can't really complain about the outcome."

"Not, at all. Why do you have four of the bench?"

I tell him why and he says, "Wow, you guys will be good once they're back in." I nod my head in agreement.

On another note, a big thank you to everyone who came out to the "Languages of Anxiety" show last week. It was a good time. We surprisingly finished all the absinthe, but were about a baker's dozen short of finishing all the beer. I am helping install a show for Kearny Street Workshop and their show opens this upcoming Thursday, September 17th. All the info can be found here.

Personal work has been going well and it's been good with the semi-hectic schedule. Just three more months until paradise.

Wednesday, September 2, 2009

Languages of Anxiety

I am happy. My first show at an actual gallery, as opposed to clubs, cafes, bars, and restaurants, will be coming up next week, Wednesday September 9th from 6 - 9pm. It will be at Intersection for the Arts on 466 Valencia Street San Francisco in the mission district. It's been a tough journey to put up this show, having started preparation sometime back in March.

It is a group show and one of the hardest things about it is that every other participant is a girl. Working with 7 - 8 girls was quite a tribulation. During one of our weekly meetings, there was a 30 minute argument about whether to use a Yahoo! or Google platform for notes and calendar updates. Absurd. A lot of times I felt like I was watching feral cats bicker, scratching at each other's throats, but I am glad for the experience and much more glad that I am a boy.

Things are on the up and up. I also have my first water polo match next Wednesday Sept. 9th if anyone is interested in coming to check that out. Besides that, I hope I'll see some friendly faces at the show and if it is anymore incentive, there is a free open bar the entire time. I really want to try to finish the case of absinthe and 8 cases of Anchor Steam. It will be a glorious shitshow.

Ana and Katy helping set up

Who is that hairy, hobbit looking pollack? I dare say, it could be Mario.

ZOMBIE HORDE FTW

Evi's Installation.

Get excited mother fuckers.