Monday, January 14, 2013

studio visit

I am suppose to meet my curator in a few hours for a studio visit and have been a little bit of a nervous wreck. I absolutely abhor talking about my work, to anyone really. I've been thinking about it for a solid month now and in the end I feel like it's better to just tell the truth even if it means taking some criticism. The current work is there, but what I need now is some showstoppers.

I've been going to the studio nearly everyday, weekends included, and when I showed my mom a picture of my work in progress, she replied "That's it?" I guess sometimes, it's nice to take a reality check.

A lot is riding on this meeting today. I hope they like my shit.

5 hours pass:


The curator came by today and I had been drinking a bit. I stopped painting around 5 because that's all I really could take for the day. I went and bought myself a six pack and a flask of jack. I started drinking just to take the edge off, but it seems I've been doing quite a bit of drinking nowadays.

She liked my shit. Which I think is a beautiful thing. I handed her a beer and she took a slug out of my flask. She asked about my show and I asked about selling points. I really just want to do well this next show. For me, it's kind of a make or break situation. I've thought quite a bit about going back to work, entering society, doing the 9 to 5. But I'm really hoping it's not so. 

All I can do is keep painting, to keep working. The work is going well, stop forcing shit, keep going, everything will be okay.

5 hours pass:

The curator came by today and I had been drinking a bit. I stopped painting around 5 because that's all I really could take for the day. I went and bought myself a six pack and a flask of jack. I started drinking just to take the edge off, but it seems I've been doing quite a bit of drinking nowadays.

She liked my shit. Which I think is a beautiful thing. I handed her a beer and she took a slug out of my flask. She asked about my show and I asked about selling points. I really just want to do well this next show. For me, it's kind of a make or break situation. I've thought quite a bit about going back to work, entering society, doing the 9 to 5. But I'm really hoping it's not so. 

All I can do is keep painting, to keep working. The work is going well, stop forcing shit, keep going, everything will be okay.

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