sometimes i think i let things get a little out of control because i just like things that way. i remember the only time having ever liked Physical Education in the K-12 system was on rainy days in middle school and we would get to play an insane version of dodgeball with like 100 kids. it was like a simulated riot with nerf balls.

i suppose i've always liked chaos. the unknown in every direction, life and death at every situation, or maybe i am just being very much a dramatic fool.